I
am always on some sort of diet, or trying to be at least. I am
currently on week 3 of a hard core diet/ workout program. Well, intense
for me at least. I have been working out 3 to 4 times a week. I am
even getting up at 6am to work out before work. I lost 2lbs after week
one and was so excited. This morning was my weigh-in day. I was all
excited for my number to be lower yet again. But guess what … I GAINED 2
lbs. Betsy and Chloe say it is probably muscle because I am working
out. I know muscle is supposed to be good, but I don’t want to GAIN
anything. I want to weigh less!! I want to, for the first time in a
long time, not weigh more than what ever boy I have a crush on!
This
is why I end up giving up on diet and exercise. I get frustrated that I
am doing the right things, and it still doesn’t move the scale. Then I
give up and find myself chubbier than ever. I just want to yell at
Debbie (the fitness instructor on my workout videos) and tell her all
her puns about shrinking are lies! I bet Debbie had lipo when she got
her boob job. And yes she had a boob job from the first video she made
to the second! Come on, Deb, people notice that kind of thing!
As
I watch skinny girls buy their chicken tenders, I marvel at their
metabolism. I’m not giving up on my diet (this time). I’ll eat my
salad, my boring, lackluster, salad. I will get skinny! I am not
trying to pretend that I can get my Size 16 ass into a Size 2. I just
want to be my version of thin. I don’t want to lose my curves; I just
want to improve them. So, even if I am pissed that I GAINED weight, ok,
I will pretend it is muscle. I will wake up tomorrow and work out with
Debbie. I may yell at her when she tells me we are almost there, and
there are really 16 reps left, but I will do those 16 reps anyway.
It’s
not about getting skinny for anybody but me. I want to feel good about
shopping and not be limited by size. So operation #BodyBackIn2012, or
#GetABodyIn2012 is underway. Lets kick this Diet’s ASS!
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